I’ve been a bit silent…


Wow, guys, so much has been happening – emotionally, spiritually, physically, grad school-wise.  I don’t even know if I can catch you all up.

I’ve been a bit off the radar due to prep for a committee meeting to see if I can graduate in a year, then anxiety about getting everything I need to get done in that year.  Then the summer started, and I’m back to only working four days a week, adding to my anxiety.  Then I fell into the depression hole again.

Like major, in-your-face, depression.  I didn’t want to get out of bed, do anything all day (except online shop, which only masks the problem and makes me feel good for about 10 seconds, then I just feel guilty), or even try to get work done.  Almost as bad as the first waves of postpartum depression.

Let’s just say, I wasn’t expecting it.  And that’s the hard thing about mental health.  The second you think you’re better, you fall apart again.  Something triggers you.  Obviously, graduate school is my trigger.  Or it could be my hormones, but who really knows?

So I’ve been silent on the blog because with so much going on, something had to give.  And I had to take care of myself first.

So I’d appreciate some prayers as I navigate this “living” with anxiety part of my life.